Potential and Struggle

Lately I have been having one dominant feeling- a frustration about not being able to reach my full potential. In anything. I feel there is a lot more potential inside than I am harnessing and I am not living "fully". It's growing into an ache. I am trying to understand this better and determine what causes this. Definitely distraction is an obvious reason. But what is the distraction about? What causes it? Is it combined with laziness? Mind control is so important. If you can control your own mind from distractions and irrelevant thoughts, you could go so much farther in life. For e.g., just when I sit down to work after returning from a vacation, it is very tempting to think about when/where the next vacation will be. But all the while, I fully well know that I won't find meaning in life by just vacationing, assuming I had the money to do just that. There is work to do, in my own life and for society. But I just can't seem to tap the complete mental, intellectual, spiritual or physical potential that is inside.

I stumbled upon this quote last night-

"We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us."
-Charles Bukowski