'Energy' has a few different interpretations. One is the normal interpretation - "having energy" meaning not being tired, and being able to carry on daily activities, the other is the more comprehensive sense of the same thing- different forms of energy as explained by physics, and the third sense of "energy", which is less understood is closer to some occult "vibrations" and having sensors in your body ('chakras') that can feel them if tuned to their (elusive) frequencies. The third is interesting. Hard to characterize. And hard to prove or disprove, hence pseudo-scientific.
Well, anyhow, I don't know what kind it is, but every now and then I feel this intense rush of energy. I don't know how to describe it. It is this physical feeling of a rush. When ideas come, and I want to do many things, all at once. Sometimes I even feel that the vessel of my body is not able to contain it. It is similar to what I notice in my four year old boy, in a way. At that stage, and especially in boys, it is common for them to have so much energy that it just has to be dissipated or they will go crazy. And so he'll run up and down the house, jump, climb, have more exaggerated motions of his limbs, etc. The kind of energy I feel, is of course not exactly like that, but it is just as overwhelming. It comes in a rush and I feel like it just needs to be dissipated. And such times are ideal for me to paint or write or do anything creative; depending on the type of project, it is sometimes even a software project.
Although this is different from the energy generated by the adrenalin rush in anxiety, this does lead to confusion sometimes as I am tempted to do a hundred different things all at once.
Need to understand this better and come up with a way to channel it!
Well, anyhow, I don't know what kind it is, but every now and then I feel this intense rush of energy. I don't know how to describe it. It is this physical feeling of a rush. When ideas come, and I want to do many things, all at once. Sometimes I even feel that the vessel of my body is not able to contain it. It is similar to what I notice in my four year old boy, in a way. At that stage, and especially in boys, it is common for them to have so much energy that it just has to be dissipated or they will go crazy. And so he'll run up and down the house, jump, climb, have more exaggerated motions of his limbs, etc. The kind of energy I feel, is of course not exactly like that, but it is just as overwhelming. It comes in a rush and I feel like it just needs to be dissipated. And such times are ideal for me to paint or write or do anything creative; depending on the type of project, it is sometimes even a software project.
Although this is different from the energy generated by the adrenalin rush in anxiety, this does lead to confusion sometimes as I am tempted to do a hundred different things all at once.
Need to understand this better and come up with a way to channel it!
2 comments:
Sumi, I can connect with this feeling, although it may not be very intense. Sometimes I feel this is probably what is called midlife crisis! :)The feeling of wanting to do everything I have wanted to do, and running out of time/not finding enough time.
hehe! :-) It is not as conscious of a thought or process like that, though. And I feel I have always had these phases but got more self-aware about them later in life. I sometimes think it is all just hormones. :-)
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